Couple minutes of Bliss

I sat out in the dark on our deck. The air is warm and cool at the same time. It is dark out but as we live in the city not really really dark. You could see the outline of the trees beside the deck. The kids came out to kiss me goodnight. "Why are you out here looking at nothing Mom?" my eldest said. "I am not looking at nothing. I am looking at the stars. Come look at nothing with me." "It is too cold out here." "It is not cold" The little one showed up then for a kiss. She crawled up onto my lap and snuggled. The big one returned with a fleece blanket on herself. "I like summer" I told them. "In Halifax, summer doesn't last long so you have to savour every moment. Look at the stars. Listen really hard to hear the wind in the trees. You have to listen to hear it over the cars. " My eldest said excitedly "I can hear it already!" "When it is winter and we look out and see lots of snow out here, we can remember the shapes of the trees and sounds and the stars." I explained. My littlest said "There aren't stars in winter." "There are always stars." I replied. The wind picked up and I said "Listen it is louder", my eldest said "It sounds like water!" My little one said, "It sounds like water cuz all the little leaves are clapping together." I was in awe of her. In awe of the warmth, the outline of the trees, the wind and the leaves clapping. Bliss. Fleeting I am sure... yet definitely Bliss.

Seeking Joy, Finding Joy

u know that phrase... take time to smell the flowers..... that is so true.... I like to think that I do this... at the very least some of the time

about a week or so ago.... driving along in my car... it was a sunny day... which if u r a Haligonian... u will agree have been few and far between.... a glorious sunny day. Had the windows down, the wind blowing my hair in my face and everywhere and Madonna's Music was loudly blasting out of my 12 speakers! I had my arm dangerously dangling out the window to feel the sun while it lasted and was driving with the other hand singing my heart out! was a day to savour!

friday night, my hubby picked up my kids and I went and got my nails done! ahhhhh! then I had my brows shaped... which was a first for me ladies... seriously... I was a brow virgin... and as I did not want my "me" time to end.... I went to a movie my myself... everyone always asks... how can u do that? I don't get that! if you go with friends, which I do... u r sitting there watching the show not socializing so what is the diff if you r alone? I was sooooo excited! I love my kids so much but to see a show straight through without having to take Lil D to the bathroom or clean a spill or negotiate snacks etc.... ahhhhhhhh! me, George Clooney, Brad Pitt, a dark theater and a chocolate bar all to myself.... divine!

yesterday, it was pouring down rain... torrential rain! so we put on our raincoats, rainboots and went for a walk! puddle splashing and all! was great fun! and when the rain stopped (which I will say pissed us off a great deal!) we tapped on the trees to get it to rain on us! Then we examined slugs and worms (gross!) but the kids liked it so I tried not to shudder in front of them.

Seek joy, find joy and know that while the moment is there... it is joy for it comes and it goes! and when the drudgery resumes... u can pull the memory out and sigh!