@CBSTweet seriously, I will NEVER watch any more of your shows again if you do not get that PSYCHO Rachel out of the BB13 house!!! Gawd!

Lol!!!! I meant supper!

Showered the sand off & looking forward to a lovely summer

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A bestie & a baby

Beach day! Beach day! Beach Daaaay! :) :) :) :)

Impressed with Myself

so, knock wood, my back has been feeling almost good past couple days... sort of scared to say it or type it due to possible jinxing it... LOL but I have to share that today...  at one point in time, I felt like I was walking normally.  I was amazed and astounded.  Due to back pain, I have felt I have been waddling / shuffling for several months now.  Today, I felt like I was actually walking.  I felt my hips moving fluidly and my butt shifting and while I have never had a spectacular walk... it was MY walk and it had returned.  Now I don't know if it is back permanently but I am pretty excited about it.

Shall I continue my physio and acupuncture?  As Mr. Popper says "Yabsolutely!" 

I also saw Larry Crowne today :) an absolutely wonderful movie.  As Larry says "Spectacooler"  (He doesn't spell it that way but he says it that way).  I so hope that people get out to it as it is so wonderful.  I hope it doesn't get lost in the hubbub of the Transformers, and Harry Potter etc.

night all :)

Depressed and Confused

I am really really messed up.  It was this time last year that I very seriously embarked on getting healthy.  I exercised more in the past 12 months then I have in my entire adult life.  I made better, healthier choices and I felt positive change. 

Then, 2 months ago, once we returned from a great vacation, my back was in a lot of pain.  I have had continual chiropractic treatments, deep tissue massage and am now on my 2nd prescription with xrays yesterday.  My body doesn't not feel like my own anymore.  I cannot wear my clothes, I need help to get up and down often, walking doesn't last long nor does standing.  Different seats cause different degrees of discomfort or pain.  I am depressed and confused and what do I do when this is the case?  I eat sugary things.  : (

My weight buddy, who was on here with me and on the journey towards good health this year is doing nothing short of amazing.  I am proud of her and thrilled for her.

What Will We Leave Behind? Motherhood: All tied up together

Do you ever think about death?  I don't think about it too much.... just now and then.  Seems I often think about it when I am feeling a profound moment of pride or connection with my children and I then think of how it would feel like to not have them or for them to not have me.  I had two life dreams and one was to become a mother.  It was a long road for us to become parents and I am so thankful and blessed that it came true.  We have two beautiful daughters and a supportive family & network of friends that helped us navigate infertility and adoption and all the challenges that parenting has brought along.  It is exhausting, frustrating, confusing all the time.  It is also rewarding, joyous, blissful, exciting all the time.   I head to my great aunt's funeral this morning (I went to my uncle's last week) so as I reflect and contemplate Nora's life and the gifts / experiences she leaves behind I ponder my own and know that while I don't want to leave my children any time soon, I am a good mom and my contribution to raising two good kids will be a legacy / mark I will leave.  I know a LOT of amazing moms.  My own mom, my colleagues at work are sensational moms, some are "moms-in-lieu-of" and deliver such love and dedication, I have friends who are truly fantastic moms, I even have some friends who are moms-to-be who shall be fabulous.  I wish you all an amazing Mother's Day!   You bring so much to the world every day!  Never doubt a moment of it.