What a Day!!!!

Today seems and feels like it was an unbelievably long day!!!!

Started off with a trip to the massage therapist / accupuncturist / chinese medicine specialist I am seeing as I am on a quest to get my back and my body in general healthier and more focussed.

Then once at work, my vision went really wonky. I do suffer from migraines but have never had an aura migraine. Did not even know what it would look like. While I was in the kitchen at work, I was holding a pumpkin plate and moving it back and forth as I thought is was a special hologram plate. Two colleagues asked what I was doing and when I said I thought it was cool cuz the pumpkin was moving, they looked at me strangely and said... "ummm... it's not moving H." Another colleague sort of freaked me out cuz she told me I was getting an aura migraine and to take something asap... LOL. So took a couple pills, slapped some AVEDA blue oil on my forehead and hoped for the best. LOL. As the wonky vision continued to expand and everything looked more and more under water... I was in awe. I did not have any head pain yet and kept thinking it was pretty cool. The pain began as the vision got better and the meds kept it under control with the lights off.

Then, went to work to cram some stuff in before I went to meet with the faith leader at my church, the priest. That was an hour and a half of major spiritual debate, discussion, dialogue. It felt pretty intense and led to possibly more confusion. But I need to process it.

So then back to work and after getting some tasks done, the work day concluded with an involved discussion on Emergent Curriculum. Which was timely as I begin a course in it tomorrow... hmmmmm.... a sign perhaps.

Decided to go to a flick with a colleague / friend and called home to see if cool with hubby & kids... felt guilty but decided to go for it. The movie, The Big Year (with Steve Martin, Jack Black & Owen Wilson) was not about what I thought it would be about. It was wonderful (I had to pop some headache medication during it). I was sad my kids weren't with me as it was funny, somewhat moving and had marvellous messages about following your dreams, sacrificing, commitment, family and perseverence.

Came home feeling like the day was a month and a roller coaster and then walked in to the dog having eaten my wireless headset that was mega-expensive and I had had for a couple years!!!! She got in my gym bag. I was soooo livid. ARgH! :( Ebay here I come cuz Motorola don't make 'em anymore :(

Then had some other challenges and now... I thought I would note how freaky, wonky, up and down my day was as I try to rest before tomorrow's course.

Looking forward to going to Nocture tomorrow night.

Live, Love & Laugh guys!
Over & Out
H

Good Mornin'! How's everybody today? :)

Watching @DavidHasselhoff on the new show Same Name @CBSTweets great concept, I have <3 him since Baywatch & Knight Rider :)

@CBSTweet WHAT THE HELL WERE U THINKING PUTTING BRENCHEL BACK IN THERE? our eyes & ears r bleeding they r sooo frickin' annoying!

@CBSTweet seriously, I will NEVER watch any more of your shows again if you do not get that PSYCHO Rachel out of the BB13 house!!! Gawd!

Lol!!!! I meant supper!

Showered the sand off & looking forward to a lovely summer

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A bestie & a baby

Beach day! Beach day! Beach Daaaay! :) :) :) :)

Impressed with Myself

so, knock wood, my back has been feeling almost good past couple days... sort of scared to say it or type it due to possible jinxing it... LOL but I have to share that today...  at one point in time, I felt like I was walking normally.  I was amazed and astounded.  Due to back pain, I have felt I have been waddling / shuffling for several months now.  Today, I felt like I was actually walking.  I felt my hips moving fluidly and my butt shifting and while I have never had a spectacular walk... it was MY walk and it had returned.  Now I don't know if it is back permanently but I am pretty excited about it.

Shall I continue my physio and acupuncture?  As Mr. Popper says "Yabsolutely!" 

I also saw Larry Crowne today :) an absolutely wonderful movie.  As Larry says "Spectacooler"  (He doesn't spell it that way but he says it that way).  I so hope that people get out to it as it is so wonderful.  I hope it doesn't get lost in the hubbub of the Transformers, and Harry Potter etc.

night all :)

Depressed and Confused

I am really really messed up.  It was this time last year that I very seriously embarked on getting healthy.  I exercised more in the past 12 months then I have in my entire adult life.  I made better, healthier choices and I felt positive change. 

Then, 2 months ago, once we returned from a great vacation, my back was in a lot of pain.  I have had continual chiropractic treatments, deep tissue massage and am now on my 2nd prescription with xrays yesterday.  My body doesn't not feel like my own anymore.  I cannot wear my clothes, I need help to get up and down often, walking doesn't last long nor does standing.  Different seats cause different degrees of discomfort or pain.  I am depressed and confused and what do I do when this is the case?  I eat sugary things.  : (

My weight buddy, who was on here with me and on the journey towards good health this year is doing nothing short of amazing.  I am proud of her and thrilled for her.

What Will We Leave Behind? Motherhood: All tied up together

Do you ever think about death?  I don't think about it too much.... just now and then.  Seems I often think about it when I am feeling a profound moment of pride or connection with my children and I then think of how it would feel like to not have them or for them to not have me.  I had two life dreams and one was to become a mother.  It was a long road for us to become parents and I am so thankful and blessed that it came true.  We have two beautiful daughters and a supportive family & network of friends that helped us navigate infertility and adoption and all the challenges that parenting has brought along.  It is exhausting, frustrating, confusing all the time.  It is also rewarding, joyous, blissful, exciting all the time.   I head to my great aunt's funeral this morning (I went to my uncle's last week) so as I reflect and contemplate Nora's life and the gifts / experiences she leaves behind I ponder my own and know that while I don't want to leave my children any time soon, I am a good mom and my contribution to raising two good kids will be a legacy / mark I will leave.  I know a LOT of amazing moms.  My own mom, my colleagues at work are sensational moms, some are "moms-in-lieu-of" and deliver such love and dedication, I have friends who are truly fantastic moms, I even have some friends who are moms-to-be who shall be fabulous.  I wish you all an amazing Mother's Day!   You bring so much to the world every day!  Never doubt a moment of it.

Exciting Day

Our eldest has an exciting day today!!!!  She is performing in the school's musical!  Tonight is the first performance.  : )  So excited for her.  Other then Reader's Theater when she was little, this is her first "real" performance.  So proud she stuck with it as she thought about quitting a while back.  I have complete confidence she will be the best darn villager / fork that Beauty & the Beast Jr. has ever had.  : )  love u Big D!!!! xoxoxo

Election Day

Please God... please don't let them get in.  Please...   I pray a lot.  You know that.   And it probably seems frivolous to pray about a political party not getting in in the grand scheme of the global picture.  But I am praying God.  Please DON'T LET THEM GET IN.  Thanks for listening God.  Love, H xo